Sabrinabunnell - posted on 04/20/2016 ( 2 moms have responded )
I don't know where to begin.
I'm feeling so overwhelmed.
I have 2 kids and I'm currently fighting with shared temporary custody that only gives me my kids from Sunday afternoon to Thursday evening. I don't get a night with them, besides breaks at school, when it isn't homework baths and getting them to bed and up for school in the morning. He cheated on me, he was never around, he was doing drugs and drinking while pretending to be ar N.A. meetings; but actually just buying wine and bringing it to his girlfriend's house while we were married and I was taking care of everything. Now he gets to be the fun weekend Dad every weekend and I get all of the responsibility. My lawyer was fired, and now I'm waiting for a new one but it'll be months before that battle is over; he already has a 5 month old baby with her.
I have a boyfriend but he doesn't have any kids. He tries to help when he can but, again, he doesn't have any kids. He will play with them occasionally but he's still in the mode of sleeping until 2pm and my kids won't ever be his responsibility so I'm pretty much on my own. He's a great guy and he helps with bills and treats me well, it's nothing against him but it's hard to decide if it's the relationship that's going to work out when I'm emotionally drained from trying to break up fights between my daughters and the only time he's awake and available is after 9pm.
I feel like such a bad mom when I'm yelling at my kids to stop yelling and fighting all day and there's almost no reasoning with them, as they're age 3 and age 6. I feel like I waste the time I do have with them trying to give them structure and help them control my emotions when I can't even control my own.
I just need positivity that I'll make it through this and any advice on 6 year olds that already have the attitudes of teenagers. I feel like I'm failing and I have a restraining order on the person I "co-parent" with after he tried to stab me in December.
I'm just so discouraged tonight.