Kiera Elizabeth - posted on 08/02/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )
Okay, Im 25 with two girls (3 and 6), he's 23 and in college (per say: he's taking college classes) already sounds kinda bad, right? To keep this short I will quote Eat, Pray, Love in saying "I feel like I jumped out of my husbands arms and into my new beau's" (Don't get me wrong there was no cheating involved, it wasn't THAT quick, but a month or two...
Anyways, It was the best 'honeymoon phase' ever. We were perfect for each other, complimenting each others qualities and faults very well. We had both just jumped out of relationships, longest ever relationships for both of us. It was like we were each others super glue. We moved super fast, moved in with each other within 3-4 months. Now 1 year and 5 months, and the 'Honeymoon phase' is long over. We started fading apart when the kids started coming around more. Yes, at first he was great with the kids all of the time, both of his parents are teachers, he just connected with them, but he wasnt seeing much of them at that time. I have 50% custody, and as far as my parenting agreement with my husband(yes, I haven't filed the divorce papers yet) My kids come over 3.5 days a week. (I hate sounding so technical about my kids, but its to keep it short I promise) When the kids are here we bicker, we nag each other, the kids get on his nerves and he even tells me sometimes that he doesn't want to be here with them. Everytime we argue, or fight, he opts for leaving. (Backstory: he was diagnosed with severe ADHD as a child and was advised by medical professionals that if he feels a situation getting out of hand for himself he has to walk away, so it's not just him trying to bolt) but, he expects me to beg him to stay and tell him why he should stay, but I don't. I know that we don't really belong together. We both love each other very much but I know that he will make a great father to his own kids, when he is ready, when he is finished with school (which keeps his stress level so high!)
Right now, we have agreed to take some space. He is going to stay at his parents house for the week. As much as I didnt want to be around him, I was afraid for him to go. I'm afraid that the week of space will make me realize how much happier we(my kids and I) could be, I love him, I care about him, I care about his feelings, and I'm stuck between, should we try to work things out maybe slow down a bit, will it just take some understanding? Or have we ruined our relationship to the point of no return?
Please help. Any advice would be good...