Christine - posted on 03/04/2009 ( 10 moms have responded )
Six years ago I was a single mom with a premie baby that was doing good at 3 and a half months. Then one day we went to sleep and when I woke up, she was gone. I have since been asked on many occasions by people that did not know me then, If I am a mother or if I have kids. I usually say "no". I do not have any other children at this point so I have to ask, Should I continue to say "no", all the while knowing in my heart that it is a lie and thinking of my daughter and wanting desperately to be apart of the conversation. Or, do I say "yes", but then I have to explain that she would have been 6 and why she isn't six in my picture book. Then have to relive the horrible moment while trying to explain? i have a hard enough time with people that talk about their babies or have them around. I have mixed emotions. I get really happy and light hearted when I see a baby, but then I am sadened and hurt that i am reminded of my own loss. Any one with similar experiences that would like to give me input, would be greatly appreciated.