Ginelle - posted on 12/10/2014 ( 2 moms have responded )
hi my name is Ginelle I'm 22 years old ,my daughter name is Alyson she is a year old and 3 months.she was born on september 25,2013 ….when i first found out i was pregnant i was of course in shock because i was only 20 years old and my boyfriend was only 18 .we were young couple well i ended up telling him i was pregnant and he wasn't to excited about it he wasn't ready to step up and be a father he let out his anger at me telling me that i ruined his life.he cheated on me when i was 3 months pregnant he went out with a couple of friends and saw his ex girlfriend and kissed her.from that day i have not felt more betrayed in my life more hurt ! then months passed and i forgave him and let him back into my life because i did love him .then we would argue and break up because i would find out he would be talking to girls.then when my little girl came into this world i was so blessed to give birth to my beautiful daughter .the father of my child actually changed for a while but then we ended up breaking up again after a few months later.he never really got along with anyone.he has disrespected my home and he doesn't even respect his own mother .he has disrespected me also ,using words like bitch and I'm worthless .and then he would just tell me after that the words he had told me were just out of anger.now he had changed he was being loyal we still had our arguments like any other couple..but then there was a downfall again we had gotten in an argument like 5 days ago and i ended up going out to the club with my girls he had not called me the whole day .i was at the club and told myself this is not my life i actually want to go back home and be with my daughter and spend all my time with her .clubbing life is not for me I'm a mother i told myself !! well that night he called me and told me so u went out huh?i told him yes i did to get my mind off things for a while ..i didn't cheat i never got a mans number i didn't do nothing wrong and he broke up with me for good like if he just never cared..i poured out my heart to him on text message telling him i didn't do nothing wrong and he just told me you went out without telling me.well i was the one that would express my feelings to him and text him and call him all the time to tell him how i truly feel.andi felt like i was talking to a wall he just told me leave me alone were not meant to be your annoying !hes there talking to these low life girls and getting to know them while I'm here at home suffering.and that was it i have felt so depressed I'm suffering so much in the inside.my daughter just sees me cry and i try to hide my tears from her :( i do have a lot of faith in God that he will heal me soon and that may heal myself form all the pain that i have been feeling .i came to circle of mom to express my self and let out what I'm feeling.and to talk to other moms that may have gone through what i have gone through.its not easy being a single mother I'm trying to cope and be strong for my little one.