Miss - posted on 06/22/2014 ( no moms have responded yet )
Eleven years ago I was in a severe abusive relationship. It physically, emotionally and mentally scarred me. This person was one of my friends before he was ever my boyfriend, my first boyfriend too which made the trauma worse. I was young we were 20 years old and engaged. My daughter was conceived out of love or so I thought. Four months after she was born I caught him doing drugs and he beat me up. He told me if I left him he would kill me because if he couldn't have me, no one could. That scared me because he kept a sawed off double barrel shotgun in the house. I didn't stay I called the police, and moved in with my mother. Two years later he found me and tried to kill me. He was charged and put in jail. I never looked back I moved on went to college four months after the incident. I thought if I was going to be a single mom then I'm going to have a career so I can take care of me and my daughter. I excelled in school. I have had three relationships since I was 23 and I am now 31. It's been a long time and I am expecting twin boys July 27th. Once again I am on my own again and am having a really hard time coping with that. I have good family and friends but I feel very alone. I expected to be with the man if I ever had more children. Someone to share my growing belly with. I am nervous because one baby is hard but two is going to be harder. I'm a strong woman but boy or boys lol sure am feeling overwhelmed. I know it's a lot to read so if you read this far and have any advice, suggestions, or relate a little to my story in any way, my ears are open.