Lamya - posted on 03/27/2014 ( no moms have responded yet )
i just came across the site and signed up. i was searching for some support on life as a single parent. i became a single pregnant mother to be when i was 6 months pregnant and discovered my husband was on drugs. i spent the rest of my pregnancy alone, except for some visits from my father and step mother i was alone most of the time. things go worse for my husband as he started living on the street and ran his business to the ground and became a full on drug addict, he became very violent and abusive towards me while i was pregnant. after i had my son i discovered that all our money was gone, and he even took out loans in my name and has left me in debt. one week after my son was born i was forced to leave my home and move in with my father, my step mother has been a great help with caring for my son. i now have a restraining order against my husband and have filed for divorce and was granted full custody. he doesn't make any effort to contact me or my family to see his son and has no interest in being in his life, which I'm pretty happy about. but here is my question….where do i go from here?
things happened so fast i didn't expect any of it. 8 months ago i was married and happy to be pregnant with my first child, now I'm a mother of a 3 month old, financially and emotionally unstable. i have a job but i don't make enough money to support myself and my son. i have been so depressed that i often avoid being around my son, i wait for my step mom to take him to feed him and make excuses to go to the store just to sit in my car for an hour. i have a good friend that i often talk to. but i can't express how i really feel. yesterday i stayed up all night crying while my son was asleep next to me. fearing that i won't be able to be the mom i hoped i would be. that i won't be able to give him the life i had thought he would have. that now i have to me both mom and dad. its a scary thought and i can't turn it off.
any help or advice from mom's who have been through this? I'm sure I'm not alone and i have read some really inspiring stories from single mothers. you are all so strong.