Acelya Tugba - posted on 12/04/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
Hi everyone...I am posting because I feel I need to write to get things off my chest and just see what advice everyone has to offer. My birth mother committed suicide shortly after I was born. Supposedly she suffered from post natal depression quite heavily. There is a lot more detail to it but I just mentioned it because I wonder if it is hereditary? Sometimes I just feel so angry and frustrated. I feel incompetent like cooking and cleaning and taking care of the baby are tasks that are at time too difficult. Anyways all that aside, I will get to the point. Today I baked my one year old some muffins, I was really excited for him to eat them because it was a new recipe and I hadn't baked him muffins as of yet. He was eating them but then he decided to start shredding it and throwing it all over the place, especially at me. I don't know why I got so angry, I mean I know it can be cleaned up but I just got really angry and I slapped him. He did it again and I slapped him again. I kept telling myself 'he is only a baby, he can do no wrong' but at the same time my anger was at boiling point. Now I am worried that it will forever scar or affect him? I wonder is there anyway to teach a 1 year old to listen or are they just too young? Also it is close to the time of the month for me and I feel like I am not in control of my emotions at that time. Is that extreme PMS!? I hope some of you can share your experiences or offer me some advice.