Shelly - posted on 09/24/2014 ( 5 moms have responded )
Hi I am new here, and I have a beautiful 6 month old baby girl. A little background, I have been married 8years, after trying for entire 8 years and 2 pregnancy losses I finally have this Angel. Alot of complications so was unable to work (after being sole bread winner for over 5 years) did practically nothing entire pregnancy and after. I now stay home with my baby and husband works full time. I love being here to see all the miraculous things she does, yet am batteling depression. I have severe anxiety, ptsd, ocd, borderline personality disorder, and now depression. I am seriously unmotivated even to do house work. It's beautiful out yet can't seem to even take my daughter outside to sit or even for a walk. Absolutely no friends (not exaggerating) other than my husband. I am even unable to pray. I know that probably sounds silly but it's like I have a mental block. I am currently taking an anti depressant but not helping much. I put on 42 pounds during pregnancy and after giving birth had only lost 2 POUNDS!! So 6 months later I have only lost 3 pounds. And to top it off my spouse takes our only vehicle to work and is gone 10 hours a day. Am I alone?? Does anyone else feel thus way or can someone tell me something to make me feel any better? I feel unattractive, lazy, overweight, and basically useless. And no insurance to see a Dr. Thanks for reading my post and I appreciate any feedback. Have a blessed day.