Rachael - posted on 11/13/2014 ( 1 mom has responded )
I have EBF my son from birth and I absolutely love it and the bond it has created between us. I co-I sleep at night and have no probs there. He naps 3-4 times in day, it has been very difficult putting him down to sleep at times, I don't force him in crib, sometimes he wants to sleep on the breast.
I have been getting extremely drained lately though with blistered/cracked nipples after night time cluster feeds although I have soldiered on and pumped when he napped in day. I haven't had a single day or night off since the birth and it has been tremendously hard at times. I don't really have any friends and I don't see family. My partner is great, works all day, and puts baby to bed at night so I guess I have 7pm-9pm to myself each day, more or less, if I'm lucky. We have started BLW last week.
I have been considering giving formula to take the load off me, perhaps in the evening at 9pm feed so I can have more of a break and maybe even leave the house. I have been feeling like a prisoner in here. I could express (I have electric pump) to build my reserves up with that time. I have pumped and fed baby at same time but it hammers my nipples and it is alot of work on my own for very little time off in return. I don't seem to have enough milk to satisfy baby if I pump between feeds.
I don't really want to give formula before 26 weeks, I'd feel like I'm giving up on a marathon early after so much work and iron determination that EBF has taken of me at at times. If I had more people coming to see us, it maybe wouldn't be so bad. I have honestly been on my knees I've felt so drained and exhausted and isolated but I can't make a decision to stop BF, it's heart wrenching, I don't really want to, but can't carry on like this either, I don't have anyone to talk to.
Does anyone have similar story? I may combi-feed after 26 weeks, I don't know what to do, I don't know if I will last that long EBF, I'm so tired. I'd love to hear any support/advice/stories, I'd warmly appreciate it. Should I wait til 26 weeks to drop a feed with formula, will it un-do BF goodness? I don't want to drop feeds and regret it, please help.......