Johnette - posted on 04/15/2016 ( 2 moms have responded )
My sweet son died within 24 hrs of showing symptoms of a fever that went down when treated with Tylenol, I ask for autopsy, just didn't believe he had a heart attack like the attending Dr said. Autopsy finding said he died from respiratory failure caused by pneumonia. I can't get past it. He passed May 2013 seems like yesterday morning he was gasping for air and stopped breathing I gave cpr but really didn't know if I was doing it right. He never started breathing again. I blame myself, I didn't know he was sick, I'm his mamma I should have seen something. I love him so deeply, he was kind, good,and beautiful inside and out. Why, why him? I miss everything about him, especially how he always showed me how he loved me. I need him, and the happy future he was supposed to have and the grandchildren I will never have, I grieve for loss of him and all these plans he had. For all that will never be. My beautiful son, how I love you. I know he is in heaven because he was faithful and Lord willing I will join him there when my time comes. The wound stays so fresh it doesn't heal.