Danielle - posted on 05/03/2012 ( 5 moms have responded )
I will start by saying that we are thrilled to be pregnant after 3 years of casually "trying to conceive". I am 22 weeks pregnant, and decided to find out the gender. We were taking a risk when attempting to get pregnant, as we've recently discovered that our first born son has Autism.
At the appointment the ultrasound technician announced that it was another little boy. We were taken a little off guard as we already associated the baby as female. We were secretly hoping for a girl, as the Autism rate isn't as defined with females. If it weren't for the Autism I think we would have been thrilled to hear the baby is a boy, but because it is already prevalent in our family we are shaken.
I feel like we are fighting against all odds. Even if this baby is autistic we'd love it.
I just hate Autism. The idea of having another Autistic child makes me sad. I am already having issues and we think I may have gestational diabetes (which is linked to Autism). I feel like we are fighting fate, and as much as I really love, and want my baby, I feel a dark looming cloud of inevitability lurking over any enjoyment about this pregnancy.
Has anyone had a first born boy with Autism and go on to have another without? I just need some reassurance that everything will work out in its own way.