Cheyenne - posted on 07/15/2011 ( no moms have responded yet )
i have a almost 18 month old. im im 4 monhts pregnant with #2. and i just turned 21 a couple months ago. niether of them were planned. we were hoping after my son that i wouldnt get pregnant until after he was 2. well it was a shock i was pregnant when my son was 14 months old. they will be almost excatly 23 months apart. im terrified to have this baby and tak care of my son. i pretty much take care of my son by myself. i live with my boyfriend, his parents and his grandfather. both his parents and him work all day so i have no help. i do everything for my son. i still get up at night with him. my boyfriend has 2 jobs but one job he only works 2 days a week, the other is 5 days. so he works 6 days a week. mostly graveyards. im just scared that i wont be able to do it with 2. for the longest time i never understood why women with children already would become pregnant and give it up for adoption, now i can see why. i know its wrong for me to think sometimes i wasnt having a baby now but then i realize that im lucky because ive had 2 miscarriages before my son and alot of women pray all the time to have babies when they cant. im just not sure how to handle this. on the outside i seem fine with it but on the inside im scared to death.