The father of my child raped me

Katie - posted on 11/21/2015 ( no moms have responded yet )

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I am very ashamed to say that the father of my child raped me while we were together. That is not how our daughter was conceived, but I stayed with him after it happened. We are separated now, but I don't know how to go about having to have the man that raped me in my life. He's not sorry, and doesn't think he did anything wrong since he was my boyfriend when it happened. If I could cut him out of my life, I would, but I don't want to deny my daughter the right of knowing her dad. I don't really know how much of him I am required to tolerate, or how to deal with having him in my life still. Does anyone have any thoughts or advice? Thanks

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Anastasia - posted on 11/02/2017

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I went through the same thing about two months ago with my at the time 2 month old present....me and the father of my son were both drinking at my sisters and after my sisters and her bf went to bed, he assaulted me. An hour prior to that while everyone was still partying he was choking me outside and asking if I love him and that I was a good girl for allowing it while kissing me roughly among other gross things.... I was very embarrassed and ashamed and an hour later after everyone was asleep he raped me. Choking, slapping, punching me in my genetails. Not letting me move or yell too loud. Forcing me into things I didn't want and telling me this is wild sex not violence. He didn't care I was crying or shaking. It didn't matter to him. He was someone I didn't recognize. Like some crazed monster. I was very scared and bruises were left on me. He denies he did anything and I constantly second guess myself like was I just overreacting.... He's called cps on me because I moved away to live with mom who is currently caring for me and my son. He hates that he has no control over me now and will do anything to ruin my life as far as lying about me and my situation currently lying about thongs he's done. He is a crack addict and was doing it my entire pregnancy and a little after. He never had a job always made shitty excuses. Pathetic really..... I just...there's still so fucking much I haven't even said. I'm all on my own now and stressed to the max. He's kept both my and my sons ss cards and refuses to mail them..

Anastasia - posted on 11/02/2017

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I went through the same thing about two months ago with my at the time 2 month old present....me and the father of my son were both drinking at my sisters and after my sisters and her bf went to bed, he assaulted me. An hour prior to that while everyone was still partying he was choking me outside and asking if I love him and that I was a good girl for allowing it while kissing me roughly among other gross things.... I was very embarrassed and ashamed and an hour later after everyone was asleep he raped me. Choking, slapping, punching me in my genetails. Not letting me move or yell too loud. Forcing me into things I didn't want and telling me this is wild sex not violence. He didn't care I was crying or shaking. It didn't matter to him. He was someone I didn't recognize. Like some crazed monster. I was very scared and bruises were left on me. He denies he did anything and I constantly second guess myself like was I just overreacting.... He's called cps on me because I moved away to live with mom who is currently caring for me and my son. He hates that he has no control over me now and will do anything to ruin my life as far as lying about me and my situation currently lying about thongs he's done. He is a crack addict and was doing it my entire pregnancy and a little after. He never had a job always made shitty excuses. Pathetic really..... I just...there's still so fucking much I haven't even said. I'm all on my own now and stressed to the max. He's kept both my and my sons ss cards and refuses to mail them..

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