To my beautiful wee Nephew who passed away at 6 months - days before my wee girl was born :(

Rebekah - posted on 01/01/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )

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My eyes are cried out, My heart is in pain, I cannot breathe.

I am lost in myself, still in shock, unable to function.

I am shattered, my heart broken into pieces of a million.

I slump to the ground with my head in my hands, but my mind is numb and nowhere.

How dare my life throw at me this cruel reality!

Who would ever think that I the strong one would be brought to my knees so suddenly,

Emotion slips through my hands, I hopelessly try and clutch at strands,

So far inside my head that I have begun to loose myself again,

I feel no cold as I sit slumped at the door, this must be absolute devastation at it's core.

I still see my shadow so therefore must exist,

but so badly I am wishing for my head to be clear of this unpleasant mist.

I contemplate again the events from that day,

although they still assemble themselves in complete disarray.

I am encased by the cold unforgiving hands of despair

I have lost my heart, it has been shattered,

the pieces of it lie scattered for miles.

I would go and collect them but cannot,

I am trapped under this here rock,

I wish to be not under it but on top,

People always say there is only one way from here and it is up.

but they seem to have overlooked sideways.

I am enveloped in a devastation daze,

But here I go like a crab to pick up the pieces

I'll pick them up one by one and re-assemble them..

And maybe someday my heart will be whole again

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Becky - posted on 01/02/2013

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Aww I Can Imagine Hun, It Must Be Scary, Hope You're Okay And In Time It will Get Easier for you And Your Family x

Becky - posted on 01/01/2013

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Hey Beks, Didn't want to read and run, but that is so beautiful, sending you massive hugs and lots of love, hope you get through this sad time, my thoughts are with you all xxx

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