Alicia - posted on 03/02/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )
I've been having issues dealing with my son's crying since he was born. He was colicky for the first three months, and I'm wondering if that has something to do with why I have such an issue dealing with his crying now. I don't want to get into too much detail, I will just clarify that it's not normal anger or frustration that I feel when he cries (for no reason). I have to leave him with my fiance or in his crib bc I feel so overwhelmed with anger, and this is just about every single time he's fussy without cause. However, I discussed it with the doctor who delivered him, and she said my anger was normal, but not outside of depression. PPD depression runs in my family-my mom and two of my aunts had it-- so I was prepared to recognize it and get meds if I needed them. However, I'm not sure that's what this is. Not trying to throw out TMI from my past, but I was raised by an abusive grandmother who hated when I cried, and blew up whenever I did. Altho I work at being nothing like her, I'm afraid that this stems from my past, and am unsure of how to get past this. We don't have insurance, and we're low on money bc we recently moved, so I don't know what to do, even though I've looked at different options. I can either get meds for PPD, or go to anger management classes, but I don't know which I should do and I don't have enough money to do both! I realize, as I write this, that it seems a bit ridiculous asking for other ppl's opinions on something like this, but I guess what I'd like to know is if anyone else has dealt with this, and what they did about it.