Daphanie - posted on 08/22/2015 ( 14 moms have responded )
Hi my name is Lashay I am a mother of 5 beautiful kids 3 girls and 2 boys. I am 26 years old " I know " young right. I got my tubal ligation at the age of 23 after my 3 year old was born. I felt great after giving birth to a healthy 8 lb 9 oz baby boy and I had his father along with some family members in the room with me, some of them was telling me that they think that it is best I got my tube tied, I was sedated off of pain meds not really wanting to do it but I still went on and did it. At the time of doing it I still had doubts but when I woke up from surgery my heart was broken. I was officially sterile, WHY did I make that decision I cried like a baby, I was so depressed for the first year I could barely get out of bed or be the mother I was suppose to be for my kids I began to have all kind of health problems, anxiety as well and I also didn't lose not one pound witch was very unusual for me, since then I have gained 50 pounds that won't even budge no matter how much less I eat, I am so moody and I have the worst periods ever. I have talked to my doctor, family, friends and prayed. They just think that I am being petty and over reacting, but they just don't understand they can't understand, people just look at well you have 5 kids why wouldn't you want your tubes tied. I don't feel like me that's why I feel less than a woman, I am miserable, fat, hurting or sick all the time I can't enjoy my life or my kids. The worst part about it I wasn't ready I did it for them not because that is what I truly wanted. I am living a miserable life and I always go back to the day I had the surgery in my head and wish that I could turn back the hands of time but unfortunately I can't and I can't afford to get a reversal I just wish that I can feel like me again.....