Amber - posted on 03/12/2011 ( 9 moms have responded )
Okay so I have an idiot for a "sperm donor" who has done NOTHING to help my beautiful 21mnth old daughter other then help make her.....He has been in and out of jail since before she was born, he did good for a couple of months when she was about 2 months old then he went back for theft. Got out I told him I would give him one more chance if he goes back I'm done you won't see her unless its court ordered well that lasted a for a while then when my daughter was about 8 months he went and stabbed a man over drugs!! WTF So ever since he has had NO contact with my daughter. I told him if he could get help (because he is also an acoholic) got a job kept it for atleast a year we would talk about him seeing my girlie again. Well still no job he calls me atleast 20 times a day not even about my daughter he will ask "how is she doing" and thats it the rest of the time its "you know I'm the best man for you" or "You know I still love you and want to be with you". Then he started like watching my house it's really creepy and scary. Anyway my point is I did this for my girlie to give her the life he can't because he is now a felon I also found out he is being charged with 2nd degree attempted murder....I know I'm doing what's best for her but why do i constantly second guess my choices like am I actually doing what's best for her or does she REALLY need her father will she hate me later for it....I just want my little girl to be happy and she is but I'm afraid that this will later bite me in the ass....Anyway advice on how to quit second guessing myself would be nice. Do any of you do it? Thank you!