Elisija - posted on 03/11/2015 ( 22 moms have responded )
Hello everyone, I just signed up to tell you my story and hear your opinions.
I’m a young woman, 29 years old. I’m pregnant and that’s mostly my problem. Actually I hate children and I’ve always thought I’ll never have them. I never thought I’ll ever be pregnant, but unfortunately now I am. The father of a child wasn’t a very reliable man. The day I told him I’m pregnant was the last day I ever saw him, he disappeared almost in the speed of light. I know many women in my place would abort, but I’ve always been against abortions. I think every person deserves a chance to live and, although I don’t want him, I don’t have any rights to take the life of this child. So I’ve decided to give birth and then give the child up for adoption.
I’m 8 months pregnant now and the thing is that almost all the people I know think I’m crazy about adoption. A friend of mine came to visit me some time ago. She then asked why haven’t I bought anything for the baby. When I said that’s because I’m not going to keep the baby, she looked at me as if I would be an alien. I don’t understand this attitude. Would it be better if I had killed this child? I know I'm pretty selfish person, because I don’t want this child in the first place. I don’t want to change my life because of child, I don’t want the sleepless nights, I don’t want to hear the sound of baby’s crying that’s just driving me insane, I don’t want to teach him, to feed him, etc, so I would be a terrible mother. Also I wouldn’t say I’m thrilled about my spoiled figure and I wouldn’t say it feels good to feel the baby moving inside of me. Some might think I’m horrible woman, but that’s how I feel. I know it’s only my own fault, but I’m doing everything I can so that it would end well. I mean, I don’t want to be mother, but there are so many couples who cannot have children and who would love to adopt. I’m trying to live healthy lifestyle now, so that this child would be strong and healthy and would find a good family soon.
My parents got crazy from anger when I told about my plans and said they will not allow it. This is my decision that I will not change, as it will be better for everyone. Why is everybody around me so angry about it? It's really hard when your own family doesn't understand you.