Sierra - posted on 03/18/2015 ( 4 moms have responded )
I had never felt my blood boil and my heart break at the same time before, but as I sit at the kitchen table, my son's mouth full of a new food, mastication at a complete halt, I feel the ache that has become too familiar creep over me once again. I am 9 months pregnant, and I've had nothing but complications the whole pregnancy....but this hurts worse than any pain, nausea, or emotion that has been inflicted on my body.
"Chew your food, Frankie. Then you can have your milk! Its yummy, I promise!" I'll say in an ever-so-calm yet somber defeated voice. And still, I cannot get him to chew. As long as I can hold out before breaking down and making him chicken or fish sticks with an apple, I always know he will hold out longer. My son is Wyatt Earp....an oak. I'm supposed to be the water and sunshine that help him grow...and yet I feel like cheap fertilizer who only provides the most basic of nutrients because I cannot seem to find a way to get him to try anything new. His dietitian through the doctors office tells me not to worry, she says I don't need to be a short order cook for him....but I cannot seem to break away from feeling guilty that he eats such a small variety of things, with a world of healthy and delicious options for him. Are my feelings a complete overreaction?