Tabby - posted on 09/06/2013 ( 7 moms have responded )
I was molested and raped when I was a very young age by someone close to my family, and it continued through my teenage years by my mom's boyfriends and adult hood by my step father. I have been a single mom now for almost 3yrs and I feel no closer to being in a relationship. I was with my kids dad for almost 12yrs and finally left after years of cheating, absolutely no help with household or the kids even though we both worked, and mental abuse of everything being my fault, even things that were out of my control. I have "dated" but never brought a man around my kids, my kids have no idea I have even spoke with another man besides their dad. The first sign a man wants more than just casual dates (movies, dinner etc) I run. I feel I do not trust any man with my heart, or my children. I feel like I'm just destined to be alone or am I being over protective of myself and my children? It's even lead into friendships, I can't keep a friend because I lose trust in them quickly (the first sign of disrespect) and I don't let my kids go to their friends houses, they come here so I can keep an eye on them and know exactly whats going on. Its just me and girls and I beat into them I'm the only one they can ever trust. Feeling a little embarrassed now that its all typed out, but I desperately need thoughts of people from "the outside"