Breanna - posted on 10/22/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
At the end of my senior year, right after my senior ball I came to find out I was expecting with my high school sweet heart. I was scared & happy at the same time. While I was pregnant I was horribly sick. I threw up everything I put into my mouth even water. The pounds were dropping like crazy, and every day I got weaker & weaker. My hair was dull, my skin was pale & people started noticing my bones. I was so confused? I should've been gaining weight right? Not losing so much rapidly. All the pain & suffering I was in meant nothing to the little person growing inside me. I loved every moment being pregnant, I loved holding my tummy and hearing his or hers heart beat. (I felt as if it was a little boy). I fell in love. I never felt so much love & happiness in my life. All I wanted to be was healthy so I can enjoy the days to come....but it only got worse. And soon enough I lost my precious baby. Worst experience of my life, oh the pain. This happened about a year and a half ago and to this day I still cry. I feel this hallowness in my womb & an ache in my heart. I still feel pain in my heart from this lost. Why wasn't I good enough to carry my child? Why do I still feel this pain inside me? What can I do to over come loss of a child? Please kind words will help me alot.