LeAnna - posted on 07/01/2013 ( no moms have responded yet )
My daughter has recently been diagnosed with ADHD. I have been questioning teachers since kindergarten about her development and performance and have been told, until this year, that it would "click." I took their advice and did not push. Now she has technically failed the 4th grade, but is being placed in 5th. Her self esteem is so low that she wishes she were dead and thinks that we hate her! I feel like a failure for not pushing earlier when I "knew" something was wrong. We have constant strife with our 10 y.o. and her 6 y.o. sister which leads to even more difficulty and tension. I just don't even know what is normal to expect from her. We have put her on Strattera and just started Concerta. I was hoping that the Strattera would help with the mood swings, anger, and feeling worthless. She does not talk to me about anything but then complains that we don't listen to her at all, She gets upset and says that we do not even know or understand her. The only reason I know about her wanting to die and that she thinks we hate her is because I found her journal with pages and pages that she had written about not wanting to be alive. She wrote "This is what mom and dad will get for not loving me." And, my name is not ******, it is BIG FAT LOSER I wish I were dead!!! And "My mom and dad just want me to grow up and go away so the can stop acting like they love me." She scored borderline on the depression comorbidity evaluation which is why we chose the Strattera becasue it works by blocking the reuptake of seratonin, a major chemical in depression. Everything I have read says that you are not alone in parenting a child with ADHD but I feel very alone and worried that these are red flags. Is this a normal emotional response to introducing medications? I know the Strattera has been black boxed warning as potentially triggering suicidal ideation.