Angela - posted on 11/07/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
First off I want to apologize for the length I'm sure this is going to get. I'm a 29 year old married mom and 7 weeks pregnant with my second child and work full time. This pregnancy has felt completely different for me. I don't feel as excited, although it was planned. I'm feeling extremely warn down and have no energy at all to do housework when I get home from work. My husband is a great man, but is no help at all with housework. I don't even feel ok asking him to help because the past few weeks he's been pulling 12 hour days, 5-6 days a week. I was just diagnosed with an umbilical hernia about 2 weeks ago that can't be fixed until after the baby. To top that off, my son shared his cold with me, and I can't take anything that actually helps. I've been finding myself feeling extremely depressed. (Not to the point of hurting myself or anyone else, just to make that clear) but I'm snapping at my husband and son, and said something very mean to my son tonight. He takes after his father (not by my husband) in the aspect of having absolutely no common sense whatsoever. He is extremely bright, but says some rather absurd things that really get on my nerves. I tell him all the time to stop and think before he speaks. Today I've been feeling extra sick, and was doing the dishes (while my husband is kicked back in the recliner mind you) and my son asked if he could help. I asked him to empty the drain strainer into the trash, and he asks 'put the whole thing in??' Idk, something so small Shouldn't have set me off, but I turned horrible mother and said 'stop saying such stupid things!!' I've always been a firm believer in NEVER EVER EVER allude that your children are stupid, because their not! Of course a 6 year old is going to take it as his mom called him stupid. Now I'm beating myself up. Every time he acts up I question whether this pregnancy was the smartest decision. Am I fit to me a mother to TWO children? If I can't handle one, how am I going to handle two. I would never hurt myself, or my children, but I still feel like I'm going completely mental by even having these thoughts of not wanting children anymore.
With that being said, has anyone had any similar experiences? Am I just a normal working mom who's hormones are in overdrive or do I need to seriously think about mental help? Lol. I know it's not a laughing matter, but I'm still trying my best to stay somewhat positive even though I feel like the world is caving in around me. Any input is appreciated!!