Worried!!!! Am I going crazy?!

Angela - posted on 11/07/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )

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First off I want to apologize for the length I'm sure this is going to get. I'm a 29 year old married mom and 7 weeks pregnant with my second child and work full time. This pregnancy has felt completely different for me. I don't feel as excited, although it was planned. I'm feeling extremely warn down and have no energy at all to do housework when I get home from work. My husband is a great man, but is no help at all with housework. I don't even feel ok asking him to help because the past few weeks he's been pulling 12 hour days, 5-6 days a week. I was just diagnosed with an umbilical hernia about 2 weeks ago that can't be fixed until after the baby. To top that off, my son shared his cold with me, and I can't take anything that actually helps. I've been finding myself feeling extremely depressed. (Not to the point of hurting myself or anyone else, just to make that clear) but I'm snapping at my husband and son, and said something very mean to my son tonight. He takes after his father (not by my husband) in the aspect of having absolutely no common sense whatsoever. He is extremely bright, but says some rather absurd things that really get on my nerves. I tell him all the time to stop and think before he speaks. Today I've been feeling extra sick, and was doing the dishes (while my husband is kicked back in the recliner mind you) and my son asked if he could help. I asked him to empty the drain strainer into the trash, and he asks 'put the whole thing in??' Idk, something so small Shouldn't have set me off, but I turned horrible mother and said 'stop saying such stupid things!!' I've always been a firm believer in NEVER EVER EVER allude that your children are stupid, because their not! Of course a 6 year old is going to take it as his mom called him stupid. Now I'm beating myself up. Every time he acts up I question whether this pregnancy was the smartest decision. Am I fit to me a mother to TWO children? If I can't handle one, how am I going to handle two. I would never hurt myself, or my children, but I still feel like I'm going completely mental by even having these thoughts of not wanting children anymore.

With that being said, has anyone had any similar experiences? Am I just a normal working mom who's hormones are in overdrive or do I need to seriously think about mental help? Lol. I know it's not a laughing matter, but I'm still trying my best to stay somewhat positive even though I feel like the world is caving in around me. Any input is appreciated!!

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Natalia - posted on 11/07/2013

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It seems like you maybe feel like you lack support from your husband, I'm sure you are very overwhelmed with a new baby and working. I think pondering upon the matter will make you feel more overwhelmed, maybe you need some time off, maybe go away for a weekend to gather your thoughts and relax which every mom desperately needs. For the comments to your son I would definitely have a talk with him, apologize and explain how you are feeling. At 6, children are very understanding and will understand that you are under pressure

Caren - posted on 11/07/2013

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I really do think you could benefit from either a support group or a councelor at least for the time being when you are feeling this way.You need to find a way..use all of your reserves to avoid hurting your boy...words are very painful and can have a lasting effect.He's only &...what a sweet boy to offer his help and I would not make a judgement about his common sense...you can foster his understanding and he will respond well.

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