Nadi - posted on 09/02/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
Hi, I am a 42 year old with 2 boys aged 12 and 10 in a unappreciated marriage. I have always done things right, never messed up my youth and married the man my parents introduced. I have been involved in an emotional affair with a guy half my age (21) for the last 2.5 years. Realizing what I am doing is wrong I have tried to chase him away with every possible excuse and had scolded him in even in total filth. But he is not budging... I have asked him several times, why he wants to be with me. He keeps saying that I have never known what love is and he wants to show the depth of the meaning of love to me. He is still an under grad overseas and we have even kept a long distance relationship going. Now he wants me to move out and come with him, finding work in his country of residence until he is capable to support.... I love him deeply and has felt needed, loved, appreciated and everything possible a woman feels when in love. I care and love my children deeply but they have a great father and is sure they will be well looked after. I feel used and that I have sacrificed a lot in life and now want to do something I like to do.... This guy is very smart and is sure to do well in life (and is on a full scholarship at university). I have asked him whether he would lose interest in me when I am old.... He says that you got to wait and see. Thus far he understands that I am old and have seen me with greying hair and is not concerned one bit about it. Even with others, he is a very popular, helpful and capable individual.... What should I do? I love him so much but is scared to take the step to move out because if it fails I have no coming back....