Renee - posted on 07/06/2012 ( 17 moms have responded )
I have Irish twins, my son will be 4 at the end of September and my daughter will be 3 in August. I hate being their mom. My daughter is fairly well behaved and listens quite well, but my son is the spawn of Satan, I swear.
Recently, we had potty trained our son fully during day time. However, work then started on our kitchen and he completely regressed. He refuses to use the potty, and starts school is September!!! Not to mention that my daught tries to do the potty thing, but is usually peeing every 5 mins or so, it's driving me nuts!!!!
I know I need time away from them, I already feel like I'm just going to have a mental breakdown, but I have no one, and I mean NO ONE to help. Their daddy works long days, and by the time he's home, it's 1 hour until bedtime. On weekends he's doing extra work to bring in more money that we desperately need right now (I'm a school bus driver and get laid off in the summer). My friends are always too busy, and have even mentioned how bad my son is, which makes me less inclined to have them watch them. My mother in law can't watch them either, any time we've asked her to, she expects us back as soon as possible, she doesnt even make an effort to come see them, and we only live across the street! My brother and sister in law are very busy with work and their 5 year old and new baby coming sometime in August. My sister, well let's just not go there, she's a great aunt but not great babysitter material. And we've been to my parents so much, that I feel they're sick of us and the kids. (they're home is being renovated and isn't a great place for the kids to go). My brother... Well he's hardly in the picture, except for family events.
No one is ther for me, maybe I sound all woe is me, but I'm so damn depressed about being stuck as my kids mom right now. Any time I say anything about my spouse's lack of help, all I hear from my mom and mother in law is 'we never had any help, we had to do everything ouselves, and we're expected to' however, my mom had her kids 4 and 6 years apart, and my Mother in law hers 5 years apart, so they have NO idea how hard things are for me. If I could, my kids would be in daycare, but we are struggling so hard financially, I can only go out so many places due to gas in my car.
I just really needed to get that all out and wondered if there's anyone else out there, completely depressed at being a mom, and feeling trapped by your children?