Does anyone else suffer from PPD???? I feel sooo alone :(

Sarah - posted on 05/31/2009

well when i had my first son(now four) i had ppd and they put me on prozac, not good, it didnt help at all. i had it bad i was soo over protective of my baby i thoguht poeple wanted to hurt him, i didnt let anyone else make his bottles because i thoguht they were going to poisen him! i couldnt sleep at all becuse i was so afraid he would die of sids, and i would cry and cry when he was crying, i remamber sitting on the floor in his room next to his bed thinking if i killed myself my husband could remarry and she would make a better mother for him then i could, it got so bad i was seeing things, bt then i got on zoloft and it seemed to help. well with my daughter they put me on zoloft at 36 weeks preg to prevent it and i was on it for a year, i now have my 3rd child(6mo) and i was put on it at 36 weeks just like last time but it doesnt seem to be working for me anymore im going to make an app tomorrow to talk to my doctor about getting something better. i cry alot over the littlest things, i feel giulty when he cries and i cant fix it, i think of divorce every time my huband and i fight and i know its the depression because when im not upset i can see he is a great husband and my kids are fantstic too. im feeling lonely all the time, but at least i know what the problem is and i believe that once i change meds again i will feel a lot better, i hope my story helps if you want to talk im here, maybe we can help eachother :]

Krisanthya - posted on 05/31/2009

What you need is Krissy and Nancy time. I will call Nancy this morning. I need to go to barn today come hell or high water if you would like to join me.

Tamara - posted on 05/28/2009

I had pretty bad PPD. No, you're not alone. So many moms don't say a word about what they're feeling and suffer in silence. You've chosen not to and that's an important first step. Do you have a playgroup you can attend? Do you take walks? I found that getting out into the sunshine always lifted my mood, esp. if I was surrounded by nature like in a park or just out in the backyard. Do you have any support outside your husband?

As far as the medicine goes, I have depression and ADHD so YMMV as far as what I'm taking. Currently, I'm on 150 milligrams of Zoloft, 75 milligrams of Lamictal, and 15 milligrams of Adderall XR. It works fairly well, esp. with the addition of the Lamictal to control my mood swings.

Veronica - posted on 05/28/2009

Thus far in my training, Ive learned that depression can be cause by your digestive tract being imbalanced. Your ph might be off, you may have a lot of toxins in your body, and this is going to throw off your chemical balance in your brain as well. (Dont quote me Im not a specialist, or expert - Im in training for nutriceudical grade products) Have you thought about alternative medicine?

Heather - posted on 05/28/2009

I had PPD with my first pregnancy. I ended up on Celexa, which helped a lot, but got my period every 2 wks. talk about aggravating! They switched me to Lexapro, which did the trick, but not as well. I also got a therapist to help me through my issues. She was a lifesaver. You are not alone! you are doing the hardest job in the world right now- being a mom- so don't forget to take care of yourself. You can't do your job without making sure you are cared for as well.

Paula - posted on 05/28/2009

Hi Erinn,

My name is Paula, your story really caught my eye. I don't have PPD but I did suffer awhile with some depression. I took paxil for ayear and a half and then felt better and took myself off of it. During that time my oldest son was graduating from highschool, we were living away from our family in another state, moving into a new home, and working 60plus hours a week. I had no one to talk to at all about how I felt but the Lord. Don't get me wrong that was wonderful, and even my husband but I needed someone who understood my feelings.

I went to my doctor and he was wonderful, he took time to pray with me and tell me that sometimes in life we need alittle help with life. He explained to me what was happening to me in my brain and why. I was so happy that I had someone who heard me. You know what I mean. I was going through my change too and that had alot to do with it.

I want you to know that you are not alone! As a friend to you dearheart please know that you are ok. I would talk to another doctor just to make sure for yourself. So many things can play into it and you want to make sure.

Having two littleones can just take everything out of you. I know! Beth Moore has some wonderful books out their also. I take medication for pain and I know that there are side effects that can change you also. Write down if you can daily what you are feeling and what things set you off. You might find a pattern and can see what sets you off. Remember: When you express your feelings they change... that is good! I will pray for you Erinn, that you will get the right diagnoses and you will have peace.

Joy - posted on 05/28/2009

I've dealt with depression my whole life, so that put me at a higher risk for PPD. I had it bad too. If you need to talk, I'm here to listen. Good thing you are on the meds. Give them some time to work. That was my one mistake when I realized I had PPD, I never asked for meds because my medicaid ran out when my son was 6 weeks old so I had no way to pay for the pills. Next time I'll find a way....suffering through it with no meds was HARD. Feel better :)

Veronica - posted on 05/28/2009

Alone is the hardest when dealing with depression. Do you need to talk?? Im a mom of 5 - i dont have PPD (or at least wasnt diagnosed with it) but depression is my middle name! lol