Rebecca - posted on 11/05/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
I am the mother of 5 children. With my last pregnancy, I almost miscarried at 5 1/2 weeks and continued to bleed until 14 weeks. Then, at my 19 week ultrasound, they discovered I had complete place previa, so I was placed on bedrest. At 32, weeks, the doctor discovered I had placenta percreta, were my placenta had moved across my uterus and into my bladder. So, my baby had to be taken early at 34 weeks. I had to have hysterectomy, bladder reconstructive surgery and 20 pints of blood. I had a great doctor who called in the best surgeons and had a plan for my delivery, but I knew that there was a good chance that I would not survive the surgery. I was so happy to open my eyes in ICU and learn that my baby was ok in NICU. The OB told me how close I came to death so many times during my 6 hour surgery and told me that had we not used an interventional radiologist or if I cam in in an emergency situation, I would not have survied. I had several other problems during that 2 week hospital stay, including a scarey pulmonary embolism and an allergic reaction to medication. I had to use a catheter for 4 weeks at home. Physically, I am almost completely healed, but emotionally now (6 months later), I am a mess. I am lawyer and my time is stretched thin between my work and my family. I am so tired all of the time and have the feeling that something terrible is going to happen. I lived in fear for 7 months that my son would not make it, then I lived in fear for weeks that I would not be around to raise he and my other 4 children, but we are both doing great! So, why am I such a mess and how can I get my life back and enjoy my blessings? Every day is a struggle. I feel so overwhelmed.