Has anyone here ever lost a child? Whether it be that they passed away in an accident or of illness?
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Tah - posted on 04/01/2010
i am so sorry you had to go through that, i could not imagine. I will pray for you and dont be afraid to pray and ask God for help in dealing with the pain. It is okat to cry and grieve. this is still so fresh for u and your fiancee. just keep going to counseling and prayer does help
Erin - posted on 04/01/2010
My heart aches for you.....I'm so very sorry that this has happened. I couldn't imagine what you are going through.That is good that you are seeking help. Even though it doesn't seem like it, it will help to talk, laugh, cry about it and if crying is all you feel like doing then that's ok too. It's also good that you have help with your daughter and that you can stay with her. I really don't have any advice but just wanted to let you know that I am thinking and praying for your family. ((((HUGS))))
Pamela - posted on 04/01/2010
It sounds like you're doing everything you can to get through this time.
Just take it day by day. And when thats too much, take it an hour, or minute at a time, and try to refocus on something else.
You deserve to be able to grieve without the fear of repercussions. At the same time you need to stay strong for your daughter. This must be so hard on all of you.
My heart goes out to you and your family.
Samantha - posted on 04/01/2010
Thank you all of you. We started seeing a counsler after the memorial service for my son but it's still so hard. I often think I hear him and turn and see him on one of the many occassions he ran through our house laughing and playing. CPS is doing an investigation and because of previous mental problems with myself they want me to go to a rehab I used to go to and get an evaluation done and though I know that I am better at handling my depression I'm still afraid that they may want to take my daughter away from us. Even talking it's hurts so bad and often I just don't want to get out of bed and cry myself to sleep. My inlaws have temporary custody of my daughter and my fiance and I are staying with them. The CPS social worker said we could spend all day with her and even stay in my inlaw's house overnight but that she can't sleep with us. I just find it hard to go on sometimes and even though I have people who I know will help I just don't feel like dealing with any of it. My mom for once has been somewhat of help. My sister passed away Dec. 08, drug overdose so my mom knows what I'm going through but even that doesn't offer any solace sometimes.
Pamela - posted on 03/30/2010
Thank you Andrea.
I've felt alot of emotions in relation to Bradley's death over the years, from survivor's guilt (we both had a rare virus, I was the smaller twin, yet I pulled through, and he, sadly, did not), to feeling that I should do more and be more to make up for the life he didn't get to live, to anger, and of course grief.
Now every year (and often times beside) I think of him, and wonder what he would be doing, and what he would look like, whether he would have a child of his own now, and what kind of uncle he would have been to my daughter.
Its still sad, and bittersweet. I think it alway is when a child dies, as there is so much potential lost, and so much love held for them in the hearts of their family, no matter how much time goes by.
I had a great birthday today, so tomorrow I'll go and share it with him and send him my love, wherever he is.
Louise - posted on 03/29/2010
Samantha you are dealing with so much emotion at the moment, have you considered counciling to sort out each complicated part of your grief. I really think that talking to a professional is your best way forward I can only imagine the pain you are suffering daily to lose your son in such a tragic way. My heart goes out to you it really does.
Pamela - posted on 03/29/2010
I'm so very sorry for your loss!
Tomorrow I turn 26 years old. The following day I shall go to the cemetary with my mother to lay flowers on my twin brother's grave.
Twentysix years later, and some days the pain is still raw for my mother, and I have never experienced a birthday without a touch of grief for my lost twin.
You will never forget. It will always hurt, some days more than others. But you will find a way to live through this, and honour your darling son with your life.
Samantha - posted on 03/29/2010
My son turned 2 on March 6th of this year and we lost him the next day in an accident. We were getting ready for a bbq for his birthday and my fiance had to go to the store. Neither of us noticed that our son had left the house and was behind the car when my fiance was backing up out of our drive way. We took him straight to the hospital and after almost two hours they said there was nothing they could do.
Andrea - posted on 03/28/2010
One of my twin boys died at 2 days old from limb body wall complex. It will be a year next week since we lost him and it still hurts like hell! I joined a support group for bereaved mothers and it helped meeting people in the same situation. I also found out that I will never be the same person I once was and my feelings were totally normal. I still cry all the time...you never stop missing them. Feel free to share your story with me.