Kerryann - posted on 02/06/2009 ( 20 moms have responded )
This pass June i lost my 9 year old niece to an auto accident. At the time that it happened it was so heart breaking and unbearable that it hurt to breath. She was like my very own child and we were very close. I got through the furneral ok..i was strong for everyone else. I didn't crying until they put my baby in the ground. My 6 year old son was there also and i was worried about him seeing her so i kept him away from the veiwing untill he asked if he could see her and say goodbye. I was a little nervous about that but i let him and he did ok . He played with her hair and touched her hand. He told me it was cold but other than that he seem fine. I tried to explain death to him as much as i could and i just hoped that his 6 year old mind understood it. Now it's months later and i still feel like it just happened. I wake up and for a second i forget that she's gone , then it hits me and i feel like the air is knocked outta me. I wanna know ,when is it gonna stop? This unbearable feeling of loss. How do i snap out of it ? How do i stop crying? I feel like it's affecting my parenting. I'm not letting my son out of my sight and it's stoping him from being a kid..I'm just so scared all the time for him. Any advise on how i can make this easier? For my son and myself..I'm just so tired of feeling this way. Any advise is welcomed.