Hollie - posted on 07/11/2012 ( 7 moms have responded )
My baby is now three months old, and exclusively breastfed. I know breast milk is the best thing for her, but I've got to say, I do not enjoy breastfeeding at all. This is very disappointing for me because I was actually really looking forward to the experience while pregnant.
Specifically, it makes me feel really tied down. I get basically no milk from the pump, and there is no set pattern to her feedings. This means that it's hard for me to take even an hour out to exercise. Several times when I've done this I've come home and found she has been screaming with hunger for my husband for the last half hour, and there was absolutely nothing he could do. She is usually the hungriest in the evenings, which is when my husband is home.
I also hate how I can't have an occasional glass of wine with dinner (something I used to really enjoy and was looking forward to starting again when pregnancy ended) because she will probably have to eat less than two hours later.
I also don't feel comfortable feeding her in public, which means any outings have to be impeccably timed, and I'm usually totally anxiety-ridden the entire time because I'm worried she'll get hungry and have a meltdown. I know you'll probably tell me to suck it up and feed her in public, but I guess I'm just not that strong of a person. I fear public disapproval.
Everyone tells me "it gets better" but I'm beginning to wonder when this is going to happen. No other mom I know seems to have these issues, and I'm just wondering if anyone else feels this way? Any tips on how to make it more bearable?