Bridgette - posted on 06/02/2009 ( 2 moms have responded )
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Hi everyone.....My husband passed away on March 1, 08. He had a seziure disorder. He had a seziure then went into cardiac arrest and they couldn't save him. I was pregnant 8 1/2 months with our daughter when he passed away. A year later and I am still missing him so much. Honestly I can't even say if I have really dealt with his death. When he died I was pregnant so I had to keep it together so I didn't go into pre-term labor. And ever since I gave birth to Gracie I have been in Mommy mode. I have a great support system at home. But I am so lonely. It breaks my heart that my baby will never really know her daddy. We do talk about him almost daily. But really how much can a 1 year understand? But I have talked about him since the day she was born. Her favorite word is da da. Which I always response daddy is in heaven. I miss him so much. And how I wish he could be here to enjoy our daughter. Cause she is a joy. She brings me such happiness. She is the reason I kept going when my husband died. I know I am rambling but its hard to talk about this to ppl who haven't experienced it. I also moved 1000 miles away from home. When Chris died I was in TX he was in Indiana. He was tying up some loose ins and was going to be moving to join me soon. So I wasn't even there with him. I feel so guilty for not being there. I do have family here but haven't made any new friends yet. Well I think I have said enough for one day. Thank you all for listening.