Kim - posted on 01/14/2009 ( 33 moms have responded )
My husband Dan passed away Dec. 31,2006 from Pancreatic Cancer. I have four children. Three girls, 13, 11, and 8 and a 3 year old son. My son was 21 months old when his daddy died. It has been 2 years now and I still haven't removed his clothes from the closet. His Christmas presents from 2006 are still on the floor in my room. I'm asking anyone for help. I am thinking about it more these days so I know I am ready... I am just scared. Most days, seeing his clothes, brings me comfort however there are days seeing them there gathering dust that it is painful. I guess I am afraid that taking the clothes out will feel like losing him all over again. I know it has been 2 years, but it still feels like yesterday. I'm fearful that leaving the clothes there is confusing to my son. He asked me the other day why daddy's clothes were there. Does anyone have advice for me. I really am so scared to take that step forward. I feel like it is like saying I'm ok and ready to move on. I just never want to forget him. He was the love of my life and most amazing person. He was only 37 when he passed and I was 34. We were just too young to go through this. I want him back. I want him to help me raise our children.