Hannah - posted on 08/27/2012 ( 5 moms have responded )
My daughter just started full time kindergarten. At the same time, I got a very demanding morning job. Prior to, I was a stay at home fun loving mom.
My day starts like this: I get up at 4:30 a.m. and start work. (The part I thankfully get to do at home!) I then wake my husband up around 6:00, get his lunch ready and whatnot, and out the door by 6:30 a.m. I get back to work, wake my daughter up at 7:00 a.m., get her breakfast dressed ect give her a 30 minute tv break before school. I finish up my work then take her to school at 7:45ish...then I get to drive 15 minutes to where the other part of my job is. Work there until about 11:30 a.m. come home clean the house get things fixed up and whatnot. I take small breaks and I squeeze in exercise and lunch. I pick her up a little after 3, and come home exhausted and tired and try to play and whatnot until its "clean up time" for when daddy gets home (about 5) then I start dinner, we eat, clean up get her ready for bed ect. Then I get husband time--if i'm lucky, otherwise I'm so cranky and ready for bed I fall asleep around 9.
Well my church got ahold of me and asked if I could work mornings to help out until our Pastor comes back. Could be a month, a week, or two months. Now, I get to wake up at 2:30 a.m. start work, do the husband thing, do the kid thing, get everything ready drive 15 minutes drop her off at the bus so she can go BACK to town to sit at the school for an hour with the other bus kids, i work until 8 i come back do the church thing until 12. Come home clean like a mad woman. Cry. Feel like i'm failing my family because I have the workload of a housewife AND a working mom. I feel like I cannot please anybody. I'm always tired but they need me. I can't go to bed early because there's things that need to be done until at least 9:00. I am in no mood to play with our daughter after school, she doesn't have any friends in town, and i've always been the playmate (no lectures here haha)
I just am so overwhelmed and frustrated and exhausted and over it! "If mama aint happy aint nobody happy" is totally how its become and I hate it! I simply don't know what to do anymore, and I need to be that rock-the load bearing walls for my family! Otherwise its a disaster zone. And I hate it. Please someone give me advice on what to do here!! :) Thank you!