Veronique - posted on 04/25/2011 ( 8 moms have responded )
So i've had 2 little girls Ella who will be 3 years old in June and Emma-Rose that will be 18 months on april 29th. Since i live in Quebec Canada i got to have 1 year off for both girls, which means that with my first i was off a year then went back to work 9 months and again off for a year for my second. Now i didn't go back because i wanted to but because i had to. Lately i'm feeling more and more sure that my place would be at home with my daughters. Not because i'm a lazy person and would prefer to stay home then work but i'm looking at all the rush routine that we have to do during the whole day to make this family unit function. So i get up at 6am get dress and ready wake the girls up at 6:20 get then dress and feed them breakfast daddy takes over from there cause i have to be at work for 7:30am so must leave by the 6:30am. Rush to work to my job, which i've been noticing lately that i'm not at all concentrating on my work so therefor losts of mistakes. Leave at 4:30pm to go get to the daycare by 5:30 ( which i usally get there aroud 5pm so i'm ok on that. Go home feed the girls,given them there baths and let them play till 8pm ( dodo time ) my husband gets home at whatever hours cause it's his business and is customer need him well he's there to help. So somethimes he actually finish before me then at that point he goes and picks up the girls. I guess what i saying is that if i wasn't working i could be home with my girls instead of having them in daycare a minimum of 50 hours a week and they could sleep in instead of rushing off, when my husband gets home it's not a messy house if i was home and dinner would be ready instead of him having to make it. I've spoken to him about me being a stay at home mom and he would love nothing more then that but right now since it's a new business that he started he wants to make sure all is good first. I guess i'm just feeling really depress right now and just needed to let it out before it ears me up inside. I want to be home with my kids, not working 40 hours a week :( I want to see my kids grow up, even if the get a little braty i still would prefer hearing them screaming then having to deal with the big babies i work with.........Anyone else feel this way???