Laura - posted on 12/18/2012 ( 39 moms have responded )
Ok, here it goes
I am 23 married and have to boys aged 4 and 2 1/2. And I am finding I am always yelling at my children, don't get me wrong I love them dearly, but there are days they drive me up the wall. I find I just want to be by myself, I just want to be able to do things I did before I had kids, draw, sleep, surf the web, read, watch tv, exercise. Anything. And I feel like I can't do anything. I try to do things and am constantly stopping because the kids are fighting, falling over, hungry something is always stopping me, which makes me angry, frustrated and upset. I've been told by a family member I need to just grow up and realise that I am a mother now. I know this, but I just don't know how. In my head I know what a good mother is, but putting it into practise. . . That's another story.
I know all my kids want is for me to love and spend time with them, and I do love them, but everytime we go out and do stuff together, it ends up with me getting angry, frustrated and wishing we didn't bother going. Im finding that the sound of them crying just makes me so, "arghhhhhh, not again, just stop crying." This is so unfair to my babies, I know they deserve so much more, someone who gets up every morning and greets them with love and spends the day with them, includes them in daily routines.
What do I do