Libby - posted on 07/22/2013 ( 10 moms have responded )
So history first. My step daughter is 2. She is a meth baby. 2 yr old meth babies have problems with depression, anxiety, abandonment, and VIOLENCE. Drs have assured me the violence no matter what I do will always get worse. To add, my husband- her dad is a binge alcoholic.
So I have always thought annie's problems were from the meth. Now I'm starting to think she has psychopathic tendencies. Am I a horrible mother foe thinking this?!
Annie throws the normal awful tantrums like any already deemed "difficult" child- but this is more. She does things that aren't normal. She observes other peoples behaviors. She will litterally sit still for an hour and watch people then when other adults are around she mimics those behaviors. When its just me around she doesn't. She says thing and looks at me like no 2 yr old should. I told her once "I'm on to your game little girl and you're not fooling me" and she said "so what, I dont care" and my life has never been the same since.
She feels no remorse, no compassion, I have only seen fear in her 3 or 4 times. She manipulates everyone! She barely plays with other kids. Ive never seen a toddler scream for 5 hrs but she does. There's no consequence bad enough for her to stop. Theres no amount of apology or affection or positive attention to calm her down. She doesnt care what you do...except that shes not like that with anyone except me. She will stop with other people. But only the people she can manipulate. If you tell her you know her game and you're not playing it anymore- literally in those grown up words she's done pretending and you get the real side of her.
Only one person seems to understand what I mean when I say im afraid of what she's capable of.
In the midst of all of this my own child who is 4 suffers. I never have time for her because im always "dealing" with annie- which in turn she acts out.
I just want to grab my 4 yr pick up and run away! Im losing it I swear! Between the alcoholism and the awful toddler and absolutely no outlet or social life what so ever! Im gonna freakin crack!
Please somebody tell me im not crazy??! I dont know what to do anymore! But I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ONE MORE DAY! ITS KILLING ME! As if my endless bizarre undefined health problems werent already doing that just fine on there own!