Jennifer - posted on 11/29/2008 ( 3 moms have responded )
Right now, I don't know what to do anymore. My husband and I live in a house that we recently bought with our 4 year old, one on the way, and 3 other adults and a 2 year old. We bought the house and had a lot of things all happen in a short amount of time, kind of last minute. So we were put with alot of bills and things that are now behind and it's difficult to catch up and keep the checking account out of the red. I am unable to work as I am a highrisk pregnancy and supposed to be on bedrest. Unfortunately I am unable to really abide by that because I am at home with the 4 yr old and the 2 yr old by myself almost everyday all day, and if I didn't do the house work around here then nothing would get done. I don't have that big a problem with that except when the kids are driving me insane some days. The thing that is getting to me right now, is that everything else seems to be my responsibility. When something goes wrong and the checking is in the red or something gets shut off or disconnected bacause the bill was behind or whatever, I am the one that gets snapped at and jumped on like it's my fault. Or at least that's the way I feel. Whenever something goes wrong, it always seems to come back to me somehow. I try to do what I can to keep things straight and keep from things getting shut off and everything, and when it doesn't work, it comes back to me screwing up somehow. I know I should say something about how I feel, but I don't like confrontation and I am afraid that someone will get even more upset with me if I do say something about it. My husband is upset right now cuz he is at work and his cell phone got disconnected, so he called me from his brother's phone and snapped at me about it. With being pregnant and not liking to upset ppl to begin with, it hit me hard and I am now having an emotional breakdown. Luckily my 4 yr old is spending the weekend at my dad's and the 2 yr old is napping, cuz I really don't think I could handle them right now. I don't even know what to do with myself. Someone, anyone, please help!