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My name is Jaime and I will be 21 this coming April. I have always had to watch my weight and what I eat because I can gain so easily. Before I got pregnant, I had lost a lot of weight since junior high, and was very proud of myself. I had lost thirty pounds and was keeping it off with diet and exercise. But when I found out I was pregnant and began gaining weight and inches in my tummy, I started to feel like people were looking at me, as though they were judging me. No offense to anyone, please, but I felt as though people thought I was just letting myself go and just getting fat. I didn't feel like people could tell I was pregnant, and I still feel that way occasionally, even with my belly sticking out like it does. My husband says I look great, and the scales say I haven't gained any more than I should for my original weight, but my self-esteem has still gone down. I feel more physically fit than I ever have, and I think I'm in the best shape I've ever been, but still, I just don't feel good about my tummy being huge and my clothes not fitting right and I don't like the looks I get from people. It's probably just the region I live in; so many people seem to assume younger mothers are single moms who made mistakes, when I'm certainly not. But it makes me not want to go out without my husband, because he is my walking proof that I'm doing at least most things right, and I don't care what I look like as long as my hubby is there.
Is this just me or are there others out there who have felt the same way with their first pregnancies? How did your pregnancy affect your self-esteem?