Karen - posted on 06/03/2010 ( 9 moms have responded )
So im 19 turning 20. I just had my first child in march and she is the light of my life! I am with her father still. He is the most amazing father might i add... The only problem is that we are still in his parents house. We are trying to get out and have been its just hard to find somewhere that will accept our bad credit. Anyways.. I didnt have a problem with his mother before I had my daughter but now all the sudden I can not stand her. From the second we brought her home I felt crowded and like I couldnt breathe with my daughter. I still dont even feel like I am holding MY daughter instead I feel like I am holding the new family toy that everyone else wants to play with too. I feel obligated to hand my daughter over to them when the give me guilt trips and puppy dog eyes. It just seems to me that I am getting ripped off of my first time mom experience. I have had no time to just be a new mom and be with my new family. It really sucks. The worst thing is that I feel like I cant talk to his mother about it because she lets us live here rent free and does so much for us. And I do appreciate everything that she does its just I cant take anymore! any advice? Am I just being ridiculous or what? Or do I have a right to feel this way.