Nikki - posted on 10/20/2011 ( 28 moms have responded )
I used to be great but the last 6 months I have just been falling apart slowley and now I feel like I am hopeless. I can't get my house in order, I can't keep it clean or get motivated too. My kids don't listen, they watch way to much t.v or rely on me so much to entertain them. When I take the t.v away or tell him to go play in his room he will cry and argue with me for over an hour till I give in. I am constantly refereeing the fights and somedays I yell so much my voice hurts or I get a headach. I am tired all the time and I don't feel like eating, I am angry over nothing and it's killing me and I am making my childern suffer because of it. They are becoming angry themselves and repeating things I do or say when they get mad. I used to do crafts with them or just enjoy the peace and now everything is just so crazy and unorganized. They are never clean and now I am told my almost 4yr old has a speach delay. I have no friends and I work part time and hate my job. We are having issues with money and we owe so much to our parents. I can't afford school and I can't afford to pay for daycare but don't qualify for any help. I had dreams of being a loving wife and mother, staying home and making home cooked meals but I am not the best cook and my oldest doesn't eat anything anyway. I just don't know where to start.....I feel like I make progress in one area but fail in another. I got alot of cleaning done today but the kids were winey, and I yelled alot.