Celisse - posted on 10/31/2011 ( 31 moms have responded )
I am a mother of three kids. Ages three, two, and 6 months. It wasn't the plan to have these kids all so close together, but that is just how it happened. I am just feeling like I am totally overwhelmed with my responsibilities. I feel that I have lost myself in motherhood and have no sense of self. I am so bored with my life. It is the same thing everyday. I change diapers, usually have to change my son's bedding every morning because he has wet it, get breakfast ready, try and do laundry, vacuum, sweep, mop, dishes, clean toilets, showers...the list goes on and on. Then I get lunch ready and prepare for dinner. In the meantime I have been trying to keep my three and two year-old from fighting over everything, and breastfeeding my 6 month old every three hours. Cleaning up messes they make. On top of that I have to work part-time and I struggle with it. I am a nurse and have been so disappointed with my expectations of what that meant. Being a nurse has been so much more stressful than I could have ever imagined. Bottom line is, I don't want to have to work, but I can't afford not to. I know, I am whining. I know, I got myself into this. I take full responsibility. I am just struggling and need some words of wisdom. Suggestions on how to better manage my little group. I am not going to see a doctor. I am not going to get on medications (I have nothing against people that do, but it is just not for me). I just need to get some sort of structure to my mothering and a routine. I have some other health conditions that limit my capabilities and I feel like I am just keeping my head above water. I go through phases where I am doing good, but right now I am in a bad place. I am yelling a lot. Getting easily irritated, frustrated, and just angry. I don't want that for my children. I feel like I am failing. Anybody else have kids this close together? How did you make it through?