Natalie Rose - posted on 08/29/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
Hello Fellow Stay-At-Home-Mommas,
Is anyone else struggling with feeling un-fulfilled in your life as a mommy? I am a young mother (just turned 23 and have two children under two) and I was a budding musician. With high hopes for a career as a professional musician, I was ambitious and following my dreams towards becoming a successful recording/performing artist. When I met and married my husband, we decided to start our family right away and I made a *concious decision* to put my career on hold. I didn't look back for a moment and I was thrilled to be taking a break to be a mother. When our daughter was 7 months old, we got pregnant again, our happy surprise, and our son is now 3 months old. I still cherish being a mother and I wouldn't change a thing or wish I'd not had children, but I have to admit I have truly struggled since my second was born. The first 2 months I had severe Post Partum Depression and once I was over that hump I sort of settled into a routine and I do have my up days. As a whole, though, I am lonely, I feel dissatisfied, and I have been thinking an awful lot about what I could have done with my life if I had waited to have children. My husband is wonderfully understanding and loving, and it's not that I necessarily wish my life different, I'm just having a hard time as I'm in the throws of mothering two very young children.
I am fully aware of my situation and I know why I feel the way I do, but I thought if there were some other young mothers out there possibly struggling with the same thing I might find some encouragement from you. I am energetic and interactive with my children and I love them dearly, but sadly, I feel a little empty when it comes to me and my own well-being.
I know this is only a phase and it, too, will pass like everything else, but the loneliness and routine of my day-to-day life is a bit of a downer for me right now.