Sarah - posted on 07/06/2012 ( 4 moms have responded )
I am 24 and my husband is 37. We are very different in some respects, but also very much the same in others. Last May (over a year ago, I know) I was using my husband's phone to call my mom when a message came through. It was from a girl. And it was NOT appropriate. I instantly felt anger. But I calmed myself and thought that maybe it was one sided, maybe my husband wasnt partaking in her enjoyment. (And I was, afterall, 7 and half months pregnant, hello hormones) But when I looked at the rest of the conversation, I was dismayed to find that it was not one sided after all. My husband had started it, even. Now, I can look up who he texts and when, and I should never have figured that out, because, now I use it. A lot. And I hate, because I am so frequently hurt by it. I have never approached him with this because he has such a bad temper. I know he would throw both me and our baby out, then rethink it a couple days later and apologize, but there is NO WAY he wouldnt sleep with someone else in the meantime, in which case, I would never touch him again. I do not find that to be appropriate, either. I have prayed and prayed for the Lord to help me with this. But I am still standing here, in a puddle of my own tears, waiting for help. Please someone, help me. I am a thousand miles away from every bit of family and friends that I have. I cant just leave and never look back. Please help me.