Diary of a JuneBug


Some thoughts on being a (single) mom and trying to be the best possible version of myself.

What's your favorite family tradition?

So much of my childhood was steeped in tradition that I can't name a personal favorite. However, one that I've continued with my own child is that of Christmas cookie decorating. This is one that my whole family used to do a couple weeks before Christmas, and it goes the whole day. There are usually flour fights, lots of frosting (everywhere), several dozen cookies, and a whole lot of laughs. Doing this with my daughter has been stressful some years, but mostly fun. I've learned to let go of keeping things clean and tidy and just enjoy the experience.

What's the most challenging thing about being both a blogger and a mom?

I think that finding meaningful time to get my thoughts out of my head and into a blog post is the most difficult. I often feel pulled in many directions during my 'down time' and sometimes, when I get a chance to write, my daughter is around, and I feel like I should be using that time to interact and engage with her. I talk to her about my writing, and tell her that I write about her a lot, and she's just tickled by that. It can be frustrating, however, to have words at the tips of my fingers and not be able to find time to really write what I feel.

What's the most rewarding thing about being a mom?

I feel the most rewarding part about being a mom is seeing the way my words, actions, and emotions affect my child. Most of the time, I like to think this is good. Sometimes it's not, and I see the negative parts of my personality coming through in my daughter and it's disappointing. I want her to have all the positive parts of me, and none of the negative. However, it's enlightening, because by seeing those parts of myself that I don't like present in her, it motivates me to work on those things and improve myself. Hopefully she sees that deep work of the heart and the vulnerability it requires and can learn from that.