Dealing with CPS & losing Parental Rights

Hi I am looking to connect with other Moms who are or have been in my shoes. I am a Mother of 2 beautiful kids. Almost 2 years ago my husband and I caught a CPS case due to us using drugs. We got clean and did every thing the judge and CPS required us to do in our case plan for our kids to come home. Our kids were placed with my parents during this time. We recently had out 18months review and CPS said that our children have expressed that they want to continue living with my parents and do not want to come home. They would like to continue weekly visits with me. I wish we could just bring our kids home but at the end of the day I just want my kids to be happy. If that is living with there Grandparents instead of us then thats something I have to learn how to deal with. The judge will be terminating our parental rights next month. Then my parents will proceed with adoption. I have had a good relationship with my Mom lately and she said after court next month she will continue visits with my kids. CPS will no longer be involved in our life after they terminate my rights. My mom said she will allow more visits with the kids than CPS has allowed. That feels really good to know that she will still keep me involved. I am so very thankful and grateful for all she has done for my kids and what she has done for me. I joined CircleOfMoms to talk to other moms who have been through this or going through it. I am able to offer advice and just looking for an alternate outlet to my depression. Thanks for reading my post and hope to hear from someone!