Nervous to find out sex of my baby

Brittany - posted on 04/19/2012 ( 5 moms have responded )

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So I know this probably sounds irrational, and I will love my new baby no matter what the outcome. Hoping I can find some support from other moms who have felt this way.



I currently have 2 stepsons, 16, and 14 and also a bio son who is 7. Some days I feel really out numbered in my home as I grew up in a family of girls, 4 step sisters, 1 bio and 1 bio *youngest* brother.



Tomorrow I have my gender ultrasound, and secretly praying for a girl.



Although I've been trying to prepare myself and envisioning a boy, I've been telling everyone I think it is a boy, I know I will love a boy.

But scared I will never get the female relationship I have with my mother/sisters as this is more then likely my last child.



I keep telling myself it does not matter, as long as baby is healthy I will love whichever outcome I have. But I can't seem to kick this want of a little girl.



I've already found myself disappointed with this pregnancy as I really believed it was twins - after miscarrying a set of twins two years ago.



I hate feeling this way, I feel as though I'm being selfish.. and ungratful for the miracle growing inside of me. All of my family is saying its a girl, dad wants a girl.. I don't want everyone to be disappointed as I'm scared this will not help me accept what very well could be another boy.



I love this little baby so much already, after having a loss I'm feeling more guilty then ever for having a preference. Please someone tell me it is OK to feel this way and it will pass, tomorrow is my ultrasound and I do not want to be disappointed, nor do I want to feel disappointed when I share my news.



Hopefully I will have some great news tomorrow - or at least a positive view on having another boy once I see the ultrasound.

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TAMMARRA - posted on 06/11/2014

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I know this is late but I completely mirror your feelings. My ultrasound is tomorrow!Secretly hoping for a boy...have 2 girls. What is the update? Boy or girl?

Brittany - posted on 04/20/2012

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Baby's legs were closed tight.. no luck today - super excited for the surprise tho :)

Brittany - posted on 04/20/2012

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Well I guess no one has felt this way :S lol



Leaving here in a hour, quite excited today no matter the outcome I get to spend the rest of the day shopping blue or pink and getting prepared for the arrival of my sweet new baby. Anxious to find out but feeling much more positive, i think simply venting to myself has helped =) A baby boy would fit in so well with my large family of boys - he'd be accepted right into the clan, a girl would change the feeling the household and maybe make it a little more neutral in my favor, either way I am thrilled today is the day I find out my babys sex :)

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