I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM

CARRIE - posted on 10/14/2009 ( 21 moms have responded )

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DAY TO DAY, I LIVE ALONE IN MY HEART. IM A SINGLE MOM BECAUSE HE NEVER THOUGHT THE BABY WAS HIS. DUMMIE! AFTER THE BABY WAS BORN, 4 MONTHS LATER I WAS NICE ENOUGH TO LET HIM MEET HER. WELL WE BOTH WANTED TO START A FAMILY AS LONG AS I WOULD CHANGE. I CANT SAY IM PERFECT BUT IM AFRAID TO CHANGE BECAUSE I DONT THINK I WILL LOVE HIM ANYMORE. I JUST WISH I COULD GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD. MAYBE BECAUSE HES AN ASS OR IM AN ASS.

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Mitch - posted on 10/14/2009

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Kristan, I know truthfully words don't ease the pain, or the damn feeling, like what did I do wrong, but understand that as long as you are taking care of the baby, no matter how demanding, no matter how frustrating and lonely at times, in the end the real sad person will not be you..I do not wish my ex for bad things to happen even though I kid around on this sight, cause sometimes if you don't laugh you will cry, so we can never trully know what goes on inside of someone elses head and trying to make sense of it, just gives us great big frustrating headaches. So don't feel bad anymore as much as you can, I told carrie and I will tell you, they are the one's who lost not you. The greatest gift of all is our children, even if somedays a break from them would be nice..lol...take it easy kristan...mitch

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Mitch - posted on 10/16/2009

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WELL YOU BETTER BECAUSE AFTER ALL THAT BABYSITTING< AND ALL YOUR PARTYING, WELL MY TURN< YOU CAN USE YOUR SUPER POWERS ON ME AND GIVE AN OLD MAN A HEART ATTACK....lol

Mitch - posted on 10/15/2009

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I'm there I would even babysit for you two so you could have a lady's night out. Although it has been a long time ago since I did the diaper change thing but I guess it's like riding a bike once you learn you never forget.

CARRIE - posted on 10/15/2009

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i must say we all need to hop on a plain and meet somewhere. hell ya'll can come stay at my house. and babys aloud

Mitch - posted on 10/15/2009

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You know Carrie, I think that is the part that pains us most, besides the fact that how and the hell can you love someone so much and they just not understand nor care, how we feel, I honestly never got over the rejection part, but I also realized I am a very special person who really feels for anyone in your situation, and kirstins, and mine for that matter, There are no magic words that make anything better, but time, and just the fact that you are letting someone know you are feeling down, I wish I could just hug it out of you, but I am skinny and not to hairy, Lol, but my heart is with you in these hard times and anytime you wanna talk or just bitch it is o.k. I will allways lend an ear for you....mitch

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hey its all good...im sure he still wants you...just not man enough to act on it and obviously not mature enough for a child. you will find better and it'll all be in the past. he doesn't want you? too bad for him. right? you'll be wanted by plenty more than him. you got no worries :)

CARRIE - posted on 10/15/2009

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mitch you are such a perve. thats what i lova about ya. whats eating me alive is the fact he dont want me.

Mitch - posted on 10/15/2009

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Yes if I was a superhero I would impersonate both your ex and carrie's ex, except I would treat you exactly the way you want, now how is that for superhero powers. Except, I am sort of boring cause I have been a good guy without all the excitment. But have tongue will travel..lol

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ahhahahahaha i love it!!! thanks mitch! ya im hoping i don't get back with lance...everytime i think about calling him i just look at my son and look at where i am and think pfft screw him. its not worth all the pain and drama...i can cuddle with my son if im lonely...its not the same but oh well...im a mom now and my son is the most important. not some sperm donor that can't even return a phone call. i used to be soo scared to be alone but now that i have my boy its different...i think about how my life was before him and i don't want to be that person anymore..i must be strong for him to show him that when people treat you wrong you stay away. everything i do can come down on him when hes older so i just think of that and it helps. he deserves to know his mother as strong independant and loving. not weak and scared and helpless. it truly helps...carrie you rock!!! your better than him and your daughter doesn't need dickhead in her life to show her that its ok to get treated like crap from a guy. everything happens for a reason. theres better out there.

Mitch - posted on 10/15/2009

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Yes Carrie, and Kristan, you are two hot Milfs, Just don't forget that. There is nothing easy about the pain we all feel or have felt, for me time has made it easier, but it took a long time. I wanted to blame myself, but then I thought oh well, If you don't want me it is your problem. All of this is easier said then done, but look in the mirror girls and know that you won't have any problem getting dates when you are ready and the jealousy will fall to the other foot, and your heart will belong to someone else then, and won't want to go back to a place where the only memory you have is pain. You are two special ladies and pain is one thing I don't believe you deserve. So try to cheer up and just remember everyone loves a hot milf...mitch

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awww...i dont know what to say...everyone keeps telling me that they always come back especially when you have a child with them...when you least expect it...could be years but it will happen...all you gotta remember is all the hurt and if your truly willing to try again and risk being left all over again...be strong hun. he will always hurt more than you. honestly. you will move on and he never will. you deserve better and so do i...PLUS we are taking over the world...we'll have guys BEGGING at our feet LOL we are milfs...hello!! hahahhaa you will be ok. one day. we both will. i hope your day gets better :)

CARRIE - posted on 10/15/2009

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MITCH-- join our super hero gang



you guys i saw him today at the doctors and my heart was so broken. i just want to know why he doesnt want me anymore. i really thought i would spend the rest of my life with him. i guess its not a very good day

Mitch - posted on 10/14/2009

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I think if I was a superhero I would choose invisibility, then I could spook and torture those who have messed me up, the strength thing isn't my style allthough maybee a little butt whipping is good for some of them.

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hahahaha true that...i have thought alot about what would happen if he ever showed...hes lucky he hasn't done it yet lets just say that hahahaha plus me and carrie are superheroes now so they are in big trouble hahaha

Mitch - posted on 10/14/2009

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TRUTH BE TOLD if you were him, wouldn't you feeel like a horses behind, I mean, although you have the love and hate thing at the same time which is normal, don't ya wanna give him a swift kick in the nads. LOL and then you can make up...

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aww mitch you are too sweet...almost brought a tear to my eye...those words were perfect..your right they are the ones who are sadder than i am...he is apparently really depressed and such over this...what i don't understand is if hes so upset why won't he pick up the phone...too embarassed? i know this isn't what he wanted...we were to happy for that so i just sit here and wonder..and i hate it.

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aww you guys....i can't stop thinking about my husband...we were sooo happy and then out of nowhere he didn't want me anymore...i just don't understand...i miss him every single day. he was my everything and i was sooo excited that we had our own family to take care of and then poof....he was gone..i have not heard from him still and god i miss him...i hate him in the same breath too though...we had broke up before and always ended up together and i know all the love is there still....i jsut....i just don't know...this is horrible to do to anyone and i know i would be stupid if he showed up and i took him back again...i know one day he will....i don't think i'll ever get over him...he really was all i wanted...and when i had our son i thought things were perfect...so much for happy endings..

Mitch - posted on 10/14/2009

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That is the hardest thing that there is to do, I spent many years, why I was left, how could anyone leave. I also know I can use sarcasm, or humor to ease the real pain, but truth is the pain will allways be there, and as time goes by,it will be a scar, and if things work out and you do get together, neither one of you will have to change, maybee you will just learn that we all have flaws and none of us are perfect. I know that for me those realities are long gone, but I allways have a pain in my heart, as 18 years is a long time to spend with someone, But regardless of the years I honestly don't think people who are in love and hurt ever trully let go, Time is the only thing that eases anything, and sometimes the waiting for that time to do the healing goes slow kinda like when you were in school waiting for the bell to ring on friday for your weekend to start. I just want you to know we can kid around and lighten the mood but the truth is I am so very sorry for your pain and I wish I could take the pain away. I think for any of us who have suffered love loss, It seems we are on an island alone and lonely. But I allways have a emptiness in my heart as you will, but you will start heeling and you have done a great job reaching out and talking to others. I will have you in my heart that your healing will begin soon....mitch

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