struggling with addiction

Michelle - posted on 06/03/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )

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looking for support in beating my own monsters as to go on being a responsible and valuable parent, after a mid-life breakdown

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Dawn - posted on 12/15/2014

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Id like to talk to you but i just noticed the date on your last post and it was 4 yrs ago so is this a dead site? Are there still members here? Sorry for the inquisition just wondering if ill get a reply after 4 yrs lol

Kristin - posted on 06/08/2010

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I AM TO UNAWARE OF YOUR SITUATION AND KNOW FROM MY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCE, THAT YOU NEED TO GET THIS ADDICTION UNDER CONTROL AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT YOUR WHOLE WORLD WILL CHANGE. i WAS ADDICTED TO COCAINE AND HAVE BEEN CLEAN NOW FOR 10 YEARS AND THE FACT THAT I AM NOW ONLY 33 YEARS OLD. I AM ALSO A MOTHER OF TWO WHO HAS ENDURED ALOT TO BE MY CHILDREN. I GAVE THEM UP FOR 5 YEARS FOR THERE OWN SAFTEY BUT THE WAY TO TAKE CARE OF THEM WAS NOT HIGH ON DRUGS. IT TOOK EVERYTHIG THAT I HAVE WORKED FOR SINCE BECOMING AN ADULT BUT THE FACT WAS THAT I WAS NO ADULT AT ALL JUST A BABY WITH BABIES. mY ADDICTION HAS TAUGHT ME A COUPLE O F THINGS IT WILL KILL YOU AS LONG AS YOU LET IT AND IT IS 10 X AS HARD TO CRAWL OUT OF THE HOLE THEN IT WAS TO JUMP IN IT

Sarah - posted on 06/06/2010

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I don't know your situation, but I will tell you mine and hope it helps. In Aug. of 2008 my husband and I got into a huge fight the cops were called and we got busted for posession of meth, and weed paraphenilia. We had been using for a years with breaks of clean time in the middle. this last time we were clean and doing good for a while till my husband hurt his back and couldn't work he was using meth for the pain relief. I was pregnant in a miserable pregnancy that i didn't want i even used a little during. After the baby was born we got out of control fast. i was so depressed that i couldn't even bond with the baby. i wouldn't hold her or anything unless i had too. when we got busted they took both me and my husband to jail for 9 days and then on house arrest, they took our children for 29 days with no contact. That was the hardest month of my life.. I missed my girls especially they baby i didn't feel like i loved. i knew that my children meant more to me that any drug. I had to live and learn to be sober. I admitted myself to treatment before the courts said i had too. i formed a support group that would tell me the truth not just what i wanted to hear. it was hard and still is hard but i have been clean and sober for 21 months. i work a program every day. i think the hardes part is gaining the trust back, especially from my kids. our eleven year old still has a hard time she lies to us and fights all the time, she accuses me of things and hates athority. i know with time it will get better. i just stick to it.. i cry to sleep alot but i stay strong in my recovery. i believe once you hit bottom the only way to go is up.. no matter what your going through i hope this helps. i know it may be difficult but it will get better.

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