WORSE MOMENT in my life! My baby yesterday spike fever, seizere, no breathing..

User - posted on 07/26/2012 ( 2 moms have responded )

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**Yesterday morning was the WORST time in my life by far!!**

The day before evrything was GREAT..my little girl (16 months old) was happy, had a play date, went to Burger King and played and then the pool for just a little while, it was just a good day.
Then at about 2 AM my little girl started crying (which is usually normal as if she wanted a bottle or just woke up), so I went in and got her a fresh bottle and she just sat there with her hands up, so I picked her up for a second and she just laid her head on my shoulder as went back to sleep, BUT heat was radiating off of her. SOO hot that I looked in her crib to see if something had burned her. Then I thought well shes not sick, maybe she was just wrapped in her blanket (which she can get hot and sweaty sometimes when shes in a deep sleep). So I laid her back down and everything was okay. At 5:30 my DH was leaving for work and told me that our baby was breathing different and to keep an eye on her. So I did. At about 6 AM she started crying (not your normal cry, but a moaning cry), so I got up, picked h er up and she was still on FIRE!! This time I KNEW something was NOT right. I called DH, who was at wrk so no answer. Then the gpa and told him something wasnt right I needed him over there. She was girgleing, and I soon as I hung up the gurgleing was loud as can be. I lean her back to see her face and white foam/milk was covered on her face. I instantely FREAKED OUT (Keep in mind that I lost my mother about 5 yrs ago and was the only one there with her and found her passed.) I laid her on the recliner that was right in front of me and wiped everything off her face, had her sideways because I knew if you vomited you are supposed to lay them sideways, All of a sudden it was like she was gone. She went limb, her eyes just still as ever, no breathing, not sure if she choked on the stuff, or what, When I moved her, there was nothing but dead weight. Everything happening so fast, thoughts running through my head that I am going to be a mommy who has lost her baby that you hear about. All this happening so fast and in a instant, I tried opening her mouth/teeth open, and it was as if I had to pry her mouth open (not tight like a seizere, there was no seizing at this pointit was a stiff body, that is the only way I can describe it. It flashed back times of my mother which did NOT end good, and I thought no I couldnt loose my baby too. I opened her mouth got everything out, and kept saying come on, you can do this, not you...(not shaking her ,but trying to wake her as if she was sleeping), still nothing just laying there lifeless looking. I picked her up on my shoulder and started the shaking (again not really shaking, but trying to wake her), finally after a moment of that she started breathing, and coughing. I knew at that moment she was still with me, but I could NOT let that happen again, because I was all by myself, almost in shock and knew I needed help, so I just swung the door open and ran in the street, yelling for help. Luckily 2 neighbors were on their porches and starting running toward me, I kept saying my baby, help my baby. 1 neighbor asked if I called 911, I said no please call (I could not do anything, but try to keep her awake, I could tell she was there, but she just laid there, eyes shut, but I could barely here her moaning. I just kept saying, stay here (scared that she would stop breathing again). The other neighbor asked me what happened, as im trying to explain what happen, she said it sounded like a febrile seizere, when she said that I remembered when I picked her up the first 2 times she was so hot that I thought she was having big cold chills since the AC was on, like jerking, so maybe that was convulsions? The gpa pulled up, I told him what happened, and he said that he had a dream about 3 nights ago that she was sleeping in her crib and a snake slithered through the wall and bit her. SCARY. He said a prayer, being a pastor, and the ambulance still not there, we drove to the nearest hospital, which was right down the street. We got there before the ambulance got to our house. Once there they took temp, said it was 103.7 st that time, so no telling what it was prior. They ran test and said the same, sounds like a febrile seizere. The DR. said it is fairly common, especially in children who spike fevers suddenly like our baby did. I asked if seizeres can stop breathing like hers did, and she said yes after a seizere you body can stop breathing and almost shut down so to speak. She also said that it was more likely to happen to children between 6 months to 5 years and more likely to reoccur in children who have had one before, so she may have another if a fever spikes again, but sometimes can only happen once. The hospital ran tests, everything was normal, so it was more likely a viral virus that she picked up. They gave her a double dose of tylenol and we left when her temp went down to 100.3 , she is doing much better, playing, did not eat at all yest just pedialite, but today has eaten a big thing of oatmeal, playing, much much better. It is just so scary thinking that it could have turned out different. I REALLY feel sorry for parents that have lost, I felt how they felt or feel for a split moment. The occurance keeps replaying in my mind, over and over. I keep thinking maybe I did something wrong, or is this really something normal than happens to alot of people, what if she didnt make it. It all brings back the bad memories of my mother's passing which I was all by myself then as well.
I just wonder if anyone else has had a similar experience? How they felt afterwards, when this bad feeling likely will pass? If they felt bad that their baby went through that, could have been worse, etc.

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M - posted on 08/29/2012

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When my youngest was about 1.5, he had a seizure...awful isn't it...never had one again and he is 14yrs

Lauren - posted on 07/27/2012

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Oh Allison, I am so glad your baby is okay! What relief! I can relate in a way, though my experience may have been almost as scary I don't think it was as dangerous, but yes, I felt tormented by it for the first few days following, even though relief was enough to engulf me as well--I just couldn't get my baby's image out of my mind.



For me, I was changing my 1 month old daughter's diaper, she had eaten 2 hours ago and was crying, so I was soothing her, telling her I was going to feed her just as soon as I got her diaper changed when she spat up (she would spit up a LOT). She had done it so many times I had absolutely no alarm, just turned her over to her side and patted her back to let it out...but she didn't. She didn't cough, she didn't cry, she was just silent. I grabbed her up and her face was all tightened looking, especially her mouth. I couldn't tell if she was breathing, but I assumed not because she never coughed up the spit-up. I just kept telling her to breathe, patting her back, and then got so panicked I just started to scream "God, please don't let my baby die! PLEASE! BITHIAH, BREATHE!!" but she just wasn't responding. I felt so helpless not knowing what to do, trying to open her mouth and sweep it, trying to give her breath. I called my husband, called 911, and by the time they were on their way she started having little bursts of crying that would end abruptly as she would screw her face up again, and white foam started to come out of her mouth. When they arrived they said her oxygenation was good and her lungs were clear. She had never turned blue or anything, so she must have been breathing without my realizing, because she was still for probably over 2 minutes without making any sound before her first cry mercifully came. For the next 20 minutes or so her crying was different and she was continuing to produce frothy saliva, but she hadn't been sick. Somehow it all occurred just from her spitting up so much while she was on her back.



I don't think I felt guilty, but I did feel tormented with fear that it would occur while she slept and she would choke on it again, and I tried to keep her from lying on her back all the time after that. I even changed her diaper in a sideways position. Those first few days I just felt so vulnerable and couldn't get her face out of my mind, it was awful. But that image went away after the trauma of the experience was past. And it will pass. But one thing that may not, and may it never, is the greater appreciation for your beloved daughter's life and well-being. It's too easy to take for granted. May you be thankful with the passing of each day that you still have her, in a way that you may not have been if the risk of loss had never been there. The Lord is merciful to us, may we never take His grace for granted, either.



I'm so glad that your daughter is doing better, and that regardless of the frightening experience she is alright. And I hope that you will heal from the experience in good time.

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