conflicting emotions :(

Kellie - posted on 01/30/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )

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:-( my twin girls were born at 23 weeks Hannah died at 13 hrs old Brooke was 17days old, i now have a 3 yr old boy and a 2 yr old girl. Brock has been diagnosed as autistic.... i love him so very much and know how lucky i am to have this little person in my life and feel so guilty for getting angry or frustrated with him because he is not easy to have around sometimes :( these conflicting emotions r so hard to get my head around !
has any1 else felt conflicting emotions since losing a child?

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Melanie - posted on 03/07/2010

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I lost one twin but the other managed to hold on and now she's 6. She is so precious to me as i could have easily lost both. I then went on to have bout 3 more miscarriages before i had my son. He too has several problems and it's really hard work but i see both kids as blessings. It can be conflicting I had a mild stroke whilst i was pregnant and went through hell thinking it was my fault my son is the way he is. It's taken a long time and lot of support from my husband to realise it was no ones fault. It's just the hand i was dealt. I hope you can see past all your hurt and move on xx

Corryn - posted on 02/04/2010

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I can understand that losing twins than having a child with disabilities would be difficult but just remind yourslef that you are lucky to have him! perhaps look into respite so you get a break every now and then you wont be a lesser mum as we all need a break and time to ourselves even for just an hour? does he go to day care? If not see if you can get him into a day care centre or family day care for one or two days a week so he has contact with other children he will enjoy it as well!

Good luck and Goddess bless!

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